Friday, May 20, 2011

Moving on With a guarded heart

I am at a crossroads, kinda like fool me once shame on you, fool me twice shame on me.
My husband and I had an amazing couple as our friends, we actually became a family. We were there when her daughter was born when they couldn't make rent or even buy groceries, we were there. There were a lot of promises made and tears shed with this couple, I literally gave them which I NEVER do. The husband became the brother my husband never had. That is how close we all were.
Well, back in September before my step sons birthday we had a little falling out, and some horrible things were said, and my feelings were hurt, so so were Patricks. So we left the church we were at and started going to the church we go to now.
Three months had passed,and we moved on. Patrick started getting serious about being in the ministry, And I slowly started to find out where my place was in the church beside being a pastors wife. Well, My husband gets a call from M(The husband) And they meet up, and have a great talk, I was still on the fence, Something just did not feel right to me, and two people before have told me that they do not have a good feeling about this couple, and of course we brush it off like its nothing.
We mend the relationship as much as we can but my guard was up.
About a month ago we all star talking about moving, but no one really had the finances to, So Patrick and I prayed about where we were suppose to be, If it was Arizona we asked God to open the doors, but if it wasnt where we were suppose to be by all means father PLEASE close the doors, and close them tight. And he Def. did we knew that we were suppose to move, But M&A were still persistent. So about 2 weeks ago they decided to move, Keep in mind we ALL were suppose to go as a family, and I felt sad and upset that they decided to leave without us all, but I was more nervous and anxious! Both my husband and I felt that they weren't suppose to leave just yet! We had a talk with them and we know that this would with make or break our friendship. And it broke it, over something so small. There were other thing about this couple that just rubbed us the wrong way. I am ver old school when it comes to the church, my husband IS the king of this castle and what he says goes, I also believe that GOD will speak to my husband concerning how our home is ran and GOD will confirm it through me. But the wife was very vocal, it seemed to be to much you know?. There also was a time where my husband and I almost split up, I wont completely blame it on them but they def, had a major role in it. The wife would tell me one thing and the husband would tell patrick another. All together this was not a good thing for us. Before we had out talk with this couple I prayed and I asked God, "If they aren't suppose to be in our lives by all means father please remove them from our lives, and do it for good"
And the next day he did it.
But I know from here on out we will not let any couple or anyone in general speak into our lives, and I sure wont let anyone get as close to me as they did. I am really hurt by everything.
Here is one of my favorite scriptures.

1 Blessed is the man Who walks not in the counsel of the ungodly, Nor stands in the path of sinners, Nor sits in the seat of the scornful;

2 But his delight is in the law of the Lord,
And in His law he meditates day and night.

3 He shall be like a tree
Planted by the rivers of water,
That brings forth its fruit in its season,
Whose leaf also shall not wither;
And whatever he does shall prosper.

4 The ungodly are not so,
But are like the chaff which the wind drives away.

5 Therefore the ungodly shall not stand in the judgment,
Nor sinners in the congregation of the righteous.

6 For the Lord knows the way of the righteous,
But the way of the ungodly shall perish.

Psalm 1:1-6


  1. it's hard when you have toxic's even harder to let them go. Know that God lead you to do the right thing and he will put even better "family" in y'alls life!!! Move to texas :) haha

  2. You are so Right Tillie! I have ALWAYS wanted to move to Texas! Hmmm, That is a great idea! LOL

  3. I'm your newest follower! I am so touched by this entry. The falling out with friends, especially some so close, is in no way easy. Thankfully you have God to lean against. You were so wise to pray about this situation and ask for God's help!

    Monica @