Friday, April 30, 2010

Top 10 homes!

Patrick and I would love to sell our current house and buy our forever home soon! So Out of boredom i went and found our top 10 homes! The first 9 are in no particular order, but the last house I would buy today! So enjoy! Don't forget to click the links for more pictures!
This home is priced right! But it does not have enough bedrooms, it only has 3! And its out dated. I love the backyard.

Another small home! Well, not really it has about 3400sqft.. I think thats with the garage included! I just love the large front yard, and the updated kitchen! I love cape cod style homes! Its DEF. at the top of our price range.

This home needs A LOT Of work! But I love the curb appeal! the backyard is my favorite!
This house seems like it would be a lot of work! and I don't think it has a backyard! But I love the inside!
I don't know why I like this home! LOL, I just do!

Needs A LOT of updating as well! But I love the yard! I mean look how much front yard there is! And its the PERFECT location!

Another Cap Cod!! *SWOONS* Its small, but I love the oldness of it!

Perfect number of bedrooms, perfect number of bathrooms! Its just so old looking! So this one would need a lot of updating as well!

When I say this home is PERFECT, I mean its perfect! Everything about it! Its updated, throughout, The price is right! I could see myself living here! I bet you all are wondering why it isn't my #1 pick right?
The area its in! I grew up in the Valley, Graduated from University High school... But I love the South Hill! and I will NEVER move back to the Valley! If this house was on the Hill, I would buy it today LOL!

Its new! The yard is big, and its in the school district we want our kids to go to! This house does need a little updating, but nothing i wouldn't mind doing myself! its high in our price range, but Its amazing!!!

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

I Love Him

This man is my world! Words cannot express how much I love my husband!
He is such a hard worker! And he takes good care of me.
I would say I am VERY spoiled LOL!
He is an amazing father to his son, He is an amazing husband to me. He is an amazing man of GOD.
Who knew that I would fall in love with him and marry him after 4 short days!
I could honestly say that was the best thing I could have ever done!
Patrick, I love you so much! Thank you for being there for me, and thank you for loving me unconditionally, you mean everything to me! And I cannot wait to give you more babies! Who knows, I might give you the 10 you want....

Thursday, April 22, 2010

ICLW- First Timer

Well, I am a first timer ICLWer! I hope i am not to late to join!
A little bit about myself, I am 21 years old! Happily married to my husband of 3 years! We got married young, and pretty quick. Together we dont have any kids! We have been TTC for 3 years, and I know we are going to concieve soon, I am speaking it into existance! My husband has a 6 year old boy!
I am a stay at homewife, and I love it! My husband works full time at our church! Its his dream job! I love GOD with all of my heart, he is def. a priority!
We are first time homeowners! Which Is amazing, I love owning my own home. We have lived in out house for about a year and 4 months now, and we are FINALLY starting rennovations! Besides that I love scrapping, and meeting new people!!

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

A Letter for you...

Dear Nehemiah/Noelle,
I was just sitting here thinking about how wonderful life would be if you were here. I just want to let you know that I love you so much, and I cannot wait to hold you and kiss you! You are so loved, and you have so many people here who are awaiting your arrival! You know Mommy, and Daddy have been trying for 3 years now, We have put all of our trust in GOD, so when know once you are concieved it will be perfect.
I am scared at time though, Will i be a great mother? Will I be someone you look up to? Will we argue? Will we have a close relationship? Those are things i have to pray for. I want to be a great role model to you, I want you to be able to tell me everything and anything! There will be no secerts.
Even though I dont know you, even though you arent growing inside of me yet I just want you know that I am so in love with you, You dont know how good your life will be! Your daddy works so hard, and I will be home with you all day, there wont be any second that we arent together.
My promise to you is you will never be put in harms way, you will be loved unconditionally, GOD will be your priority, and you will serve him and love him with all your heart. I want you to remember that your feelings come before mine, and I will make sure that you have a comfy life, you wont have to want for anything, and all your needs will be met.
I cannot wait to read this letter you! I know its going to be sooner than later. Nehemiah or Noelle, I love you!

Your Mommy

Saturday, April 17, 2010

We are getting in the groove of things.

So it has been a whole week since my step son has arrived, and what a week it has been.
Alot of ups, and a whole lot of downs, since i have expressed this to you all. alot has changed. We are a weekend family now, and not because of the talk i had with my husband, which i will let you all know how that went in a few.
Anyways, We had Ryan enrolled at a school 2 blocks from our house, everything was going well until his mom decides to move some place else, and enroll him at a different school. My husband was heated. This lady is unstable, She doesnt know if she is coming or going. Right now Ryan needs to be with us, where there is stablilty and structure. You can see it in his actions. We need to have full custody. He is 6, can't say full sentences, he doesnt understand the simple things. It breaks my heart, and she doesnt care. If he was in our care full time, he would be in speech classes. Its a sad thing.
Now on to my talk with my husband, I let him know how i was feeling, and of course he was upset, but we talked through it, and things are already better. I didnt want to "lose" my husband. Since I have my husband back I am becoming a better "mother". I may be a strict one, but I am realizing that I love it, and I love my step son. I was talking to my MIL, and she kinda made me mad, she was like " I bet you like playing mama". the fact that she said that I am playing mom hurt me. I dont think i am playing mom. Im living it, It may be on weekends, but Its real. And I cannot wait to add more to the mix!
Who is loving this spring weather? I know I am, I have my back door open! such a nice breeze! We have gotten so much done in our backyard! pretty soon we will be able to entertain back there!
Today I went to another baby shower! It was alot of fun! Alot of the women there are already moms, which kinda made me feel like an outcast, but it was okay, alot of the women there were telling me to take note on the things I will need to my baby! this may sound weird, but I cannot wait until I am losing sleep, I cannot wait until I feel my baby moving around inside of me. I cannot wait until I am being called mommy by my children!
All those things will be happening soon! I am claming it!

Friday, April 16, 2010

Home Tour

Well, on twitter there has been this twitter home tour craze, and I thought I would join in! I dont have many pictures up yet! We have lived in our home of for a year and a half, and JUST now started decorating, and stuff! but as soon as we are done i will update! Below i have a couple videos of my house the night we moved in, and a video of a huge backyard *half acre* which we are finally working on!! Im gonna have grass the summer! lol


Monday, April 12, 2010

Is he going to feel the same way?

I have been so emotional since my step son has been here. I dont want anyone to feel sorry for me, but i am not myself! I am out of my element! Its weird, I am around babys and kids all the time on sunday... and I love them to death... Its so easy for me to bond with them, but with him its so hard! Everything changed so suddenly! Im so use to being able to help out at the church, or go do what i want, but now i cant! I know, I know, its going to be like that when i have kids... but they will be MY kids, my flesh and blood, and thats what I want!! I feel bad for feeling this way, but he isnt my kid! maybe i am feeling this way because i am not use to him being here. like i said in my other entry, if he was in our life from the beginning it would be easier. And to top it off when my step son was here the last time, my husband and I had a falling out over his ex. I found text messages on his phone that they were sending back and forth.. my husband and her were basically trying to get back with eachother... he told her that he wanted to be a family again... so i still dont trust my husband, and i sure as hell dont trust him around the ex... so to me i feel like SS *Stepson* brings back all those feeling they had for eachother... Shw wants my husband still, and as far as im concerned my husband feels the same way. We have talked it over, and he says he was caught up in the moment... but i still dont trust him, or her.
Then I start to think about when we have our kids... Will my husband love them as much as he loves his son? I asked my husband a few months ago if he is going to cry when our first is born.. and his answer was, No, it wont be my first, i have been there and done that! I was so surprised when he said that, and i was hurt too. I dont know, i just hate the way i feel right now! I see other blended families and they seem so happy. So why cant i?
maybe once i have my own kids it will be easy. But i wish we could share the birth of our first together, but instead it will be my first, his second...
I hate feeling this way.
Let me know if you all are tired of reading about this... lol i will stop talking about it!

Sunday, April 11, 2010

I just can't shake this feeling

My husband and I have been married for 3 years, and in those 3 years His son came to visit us twice! I would say that the combined visits adds up to about a month, thats not alot. My husband and I talked about me bonding with his son, he tells me that sometimes he feels like i dont love his son, which is not true! I love him, its just that i dont know him! I am not use to him being around, things are still awkward between us! Yes he calls me mom, but sometimes i feel like my husband forces him to call me mom, my husband will force him to tell him that he loves me! I want him to do it on his own terms, not because dad tells him to. And sometimes I feel jealous of their bond... I wish I had a child that i could hold and love on... I cant believe that i am saying that I am jealous of my own husband! but I am... I am so afraid to tell my husband how i feel. I dont want to be the step mom that hates their step kids. I had one of those, and it sucked! I think that if Ryan was here from the beginning things would be different. I want to be a good mother figure, but its going to take some time. I should really talk to my husband about my feelings. As soon as i do, i will let you all know how the conversation went!

Thursday, April 8, 2010


My latest obession! I love it, it keeps my mind of alot! I worry ALOT, and it keeps me busy.

So far i have done about 6 or 7 scrap pages! And I thought i would share them with you... But before I do let me tell you the meaning behind this scrapbook and why it is so important to me. As we all know I am trying to concieve (Duh!). Well someone told me i should start a scrapbook for my son (I know I am having a boy first). She made a scrapbook for her future husband, and it is just amazing! So she gave me a whole bunch of boy scrapbooking things... and let me tell you ever since then have been obessed! I love it... the cool thing is, the only thing i will have to do is adhere the pictures when he is born and stuff! *Look at me talking like he is already here! So here we go, my scrap pages!!! Nehemiah James Will be his name! Yes, I am missing the "H"!! This was my first scrap page.

This page says "When We Found Out" LOL my scrapping was horrible!

Just a simple scrap page!

Hey, look! Im getting a little better!!! I added this poem!
"A Father's Prayer

Lord I'm askin� for Your help
To raise my newborn son,
Give me strength and guide me
�Cause I know that You're the one.

That sent this angel to me
A little heaven here on earth,
For now I know my place in life...
I'm no longer who comes first.

Once I had no answer
As to why it is I'm here,
But when I looked into my baby's eyes....
It all became so clear.

This little bit of heaven
Owns me, heart and soul
And it's You that sent him to me
A greater love I'll never know.

So take these rugged hands of mine
Help me to understand,
Just what it is I need to do
To raise this little man.

Help me build a boy that knows
It's You that holds the key,
To all that heaven holds for us
Show him Your love through me.

Mommy & ME!!! I forgot what quote i used lol!

This has to be my favorite page. I have this lovely quote
" "A newborn baby has only three demands. They are warmth in the arms of its mother, food from her breasts, and security in the knowledge of her presence. Breastfeeding satisfies all three"

And this is another one of my favorite scrap pages that I did!!!