Thursday, March 18, 2010


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Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Excited, Nervous, and Sad... all at the same time

I am writing this blog post as I watch ANTM... I dont think I am really feeling these ladies!! LOL I dont like Catty, Ghetto girls!! ugh! I also havent been feeling well as well... I have been having these waves of nausea... It sucks! I am not getting my hopes up about might being pregnant, but There is a STONG possiblity!!!

Lets get to why I am really writing the entry... Here is alittle back history about me... When I was 5 years old, my mother passed away! that was almost 17 years ago. I grew up with the best father, and amazing sisters ever! My dad and my sisters are my best friends, and my dad tried his best to be a mother and a father! in my opinion, he was the best!! Well, eventually I met patrick, and we got married! I took that really hard, because my mother will NEVER get to meet my husband, she will never see me happy and in love... But for some reason, when i think about becoming a mom it hurts me more... I am so excited to become a mother, and all the nervousness comes along with it... but it makes me sad... I will have to let my kids know that that their grandma passed away a long time ago... In the middle of the night when my babies are crying, and I dont know what to do, I wont be able to call my mom...

I dont know, I just feel like i missed out on alot of things in life, being able to tell my mom I love her... the fact that she wont be in the delievery room with me, or plan my baby shower hurts me... I know she is up in heaven watching me... but it still is very sad... Eventually I will give you all my history! Let you all know where i came from....

Here is a picture of my BEAUTIFUL mommy, and my older sister!! We love you and miss you so much mom!!
Alicia Latonya Hill

My older sister Ebonee, My second mom! After my mom died she helped dad raise us... The She is the best sister anyone could ask for!! She is a wonderful mom, and I hope to be a good mom like her! her and my niece and nephew are my heart!!

Saturday, March 13, 2010



What is your salad dressing of choice? Ranch, or honey mustard... or money hustard... lol i sometimes say that!

What is your favorite sit-down restuarant? Tomatoe Street

What is your favorite fast food restaurant? ummm... hmmm.... Subway?

What food could you eat every day for two weeks and not get sick of? Sweet ans sour chicken

What are your pizza toppings of choice? Pepperoni

How many televisions are in your house? 2 (what does this have to do with food?)<---- LOL I know right?!

What color cell phone do you have? black... But it has a pink hardcase over it

Are you right-handed or left-handed? right

Have you ever had anything removed from your body? nope

What is the last heavy item you lifted? Call me spoiled but I dont lift heavy things! lol my hubby does! I did however lift and move the microwave!

Have you ever been knocked unconscious? nah

Have you ever fainted? no


If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die? not at all

If you could change your name, what would you change it to? I love my name so no

How many pairs of flip flops do you own? to many to count
Last person you talked to? Huns buns


Season? spring and summer

Holiday? Christmas
Day of the week? Saturday

Month? July
Color? pink

Drink? agua!

Alcoholic? no! I have had 2 drinks since my 21st bday! which was in july!

Missing someone? yes

What are you listening to? Americas next top model
What are you watching? same as above

Worrying about? Nothing right now!
What’s the last movie you saw? Precious
Do you smile often? yes

If you could change your eye color what would it be? I love my eye color!
What’s on your wish list for your birthday? To be preggo! if I get pregnant this month i will be around 4 months pregnant!

Can you do a chin-up? nope

Does the future make you more nervous or excited? It makes me very excited!
Have you been in a car wreck? no i havent
Have you caused a car wreck? no
Do you have an accent? nope! unless you consider a valley girl accent as an accent?! LOL

Last time you cried? Today

Plans tonight? just to relax and paint with the bubs!
Have you ever felt like you hit rock bottom? oh yeah

Name three things you bought yesterday? Shaving cream, candy, dinner

Have you met someone who changed your life? def, my baby

For the better or worse? better

How did you bring in the New Year? we were at church!!

Would you go back in time if you were given the chance? to get to know my mom! She died when i was 5

What songs do you sing in the shower? omg! what dont i sing in the shower?

Have you held hands with someone today? yes

Who was the last person you took a picture of? my baby sis

Are most of the friends in your life new or old? new!

Do you like pulpy orange juice? no
Last time you ate peanut butter and jelly? omg, its been forever

What were you doing at 12 a.m. last night? sleeping
What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up? thank you GOD for letting me see another day!

Why Do I feel this way??

So, Today my really good friend gave birth to a perfectly healthy baby girl!
I am suppose to be happy right??
Thats not the case!
The whole time i was @ the hospital I had to hold back me tears!
I didnt even want to hold her!
Because it hurt so stinking bad!
I want to be able to hold my baby girl or boy.
I want people to come visit to me in the hospital!
Crazy to say, but i want to spend a few days in the hospital!!
I watched my friend get excited about the birth of her child, and all i could do was cry inside...
I smile big, and I act happy, but really I am not!
It hurt so bad to be in the maturnity wing, seeing all of the smiling mommies, and the crying babies.
Out of the 3 years that we have been trying this was the hardest day in my life! I kept it in until we got to our car, and I just cried like a baby...
My husband tried his best to cheer me up. it worked for a little bit.
But I still feel this void...
I want a child of my own!!!
After we left the hospital, we went and ran sn errans!
Our firends asked us to come back to the hospital, so we did!
I put my big girl panties on and held the baby...
my heart melted!
Hearing those coos, and feeling her breath didnt make it worst.
It made me remeber that GOD knows what he is doing... It made me remember his promis!
He knows the wants and the needs of my heart!
I just need to remember to put HIM first, and put ALL of my trust in him...
He wont let me down!
I just need to be patient...
So, On monday I am making an appointment for me and my husband, to see a specialist..
We want toget an SA done..
I want to get back on the Prometrium pills, and clomid... Like i did 2 yearsd ago! And I did ovulate, so that was good.
We do want to do things as natural as possible, but nothing is wrong with doing one cycle with help!
along with that I will be working out and dieting!
I dont want to get to crazy, or a head of myself!

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

A-Z survey!

A. Age: 21
B. Bed Size: King
C. Chore you hate: putting away laundry... I hate it!!
D. Dog's name: CoCo, and Tippy
E. Essential "Start the Day" Item: The word! aka Bible
F. Favorite Color: I love pink and cream...
G. Gold or Silver: White Gold
H. Height: 5' 1"
I. Instruments You Play: None!!!!
J. Job Title: Domestic Engineer! aka housewife
K. Kids: We want 5 or 6! Hopefully Our first will arrive in 2011
L. Living Arrangements:First time home owner!! I live in a 3 bedroom *soon to be 5* 1 bath *Soon to be 2* House. With my hubby
M. Mom's Name:Alicia *Rest In Peace Mommy!!! 1961-1993
N. Nickname:Tee
O. Overnight Hospital Stay:never
P. Pet Peeve:When hubby leaves his clothes laying around the house
Q. Quote From a Movie: "Anything For Selenas!!" From selena!! Thats the only onee i could think of LOL!!!
R. Righty or Lefty: Righty
S. Siblings: 6 sisters!!
T. Time You Wake Up: 7:00am
U. Underwear:I wear them! LOL I hahte thongs though
V. Veggie You Dislike: Eggplant
W. Ways Reasons You are Late: Im never late!
X. Xrays You've Had: Teeth and Ankle
Y. Yummy Food You Make:Soul Food!
Z. Zoo Animals You Like:bearssss!

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

Maybe baby??

Well, I am speaking it into existance!! I know that MY God is going to make me a mother!! I have a friend at church, and she calls me all the time, and she is always saying, This month your going to get pregnant! At first i was like yeah, he is... But I am just now recieving it and speaking it! also a few people have been having dreams about me being pregnant! The crazy thing is, they had their dreams in the same week! And my Pastors wife has been having a feeling that I will be getting pregnant here in the NEAR future! I am so excited to see what GOD has in store for my husband and I! I just gotta stay prayerful, stay in my word, and hokd on to his promise! It was funny I was talking to our Pastors daughter who is also pregnant, and she told us to do it the Seth and Brittany way which is doing it every other day! And It worked!! She is now 14 weeks pregnant! GOD is just so good! And sometimes I wonder how people dont believe in him! He has done so much for my husband and I, and it makes me cry, because if you put your trust in him, and if you are committed, he will answer thoise prayers! But you just cant pray until you get what you want! it needs to be a daily thing, you need to be in your word daily, and you need to be in church! I dont want to preach at you all but its what you need to do! GOD will not answer yor prayers or bless you until you are committed and faithful!

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Monday, March 8, 2010

Attention!!!! GIVEAWAY!!

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Bathroom Renovation:Progess

I am pretty sure you all are TIRED of reading about my bathroom Reno!! But I am so excited! We have been dragging out feet alittle bit though! Well, hubby has! He doesnt want me to do anything without him! so here are a few pictures of the bathroom before!!

This is looking in to our small bathrrom! Behind the door is our stand up shower
The mirror is down now, new mirror will be up after we paint, new vanity next month!!

The previous owners GLUED these hooks on! new curtains will go up next month

After we took the mirror down! So disgusting!!!

They did a CRAPPY job with the blacksplash tile! There are so many gaps

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

99 things

Kaitlin at Ah... my Married Life And Holly at Ready To Be A Mom Both posted this, and I thought I would join!! I bet you are wondering what it is huh?? Well its 99 Things! The instructions are: The post is a list of 99 things you could have done, and you are supposed to bold the ones that you yourself have done.
Come one everyone, and join it!!
1. Started your own blog
2. Slept under the stars
3. Played in a band ** I sing in our worship team! We have a full blown band! does this count??
4. Visited Hawaii
5. Watched a meteor shower
6. Given more than you can afford to charity
7. Been to DisneyWorld
8. Climbed a mountain
9. Held a praying mantis
10. Sang a solo **I sang a solo in the 2nd grade, AND i use to lead worship
11. Bungee jumped
12. Visited Paris
13. Watched a lightning storm
14. Taught yourself an art from scratch
15. Adopted a child
16. Had food poisoning
17. Walked to the top of the Statue of Liberty
18. Grown your own vegetables
19. Seen the Mona Lisa in France
20. Slept on an overnight train
21. Had a pillow fight
22. Hitch hiked
23. Taken a sick day when you’re not ill
24. Built a snow fort **We use to do this ALL the time!
25. Held a lamb
26. Gone skinny dipping
27. Run a Marathon
28. Ridden in a gondola in Venice
29. Seen a total eclipse
30. Watched a sunrise or sunset
31. Hit a home run
32. Been on a cruise
33. Seen Niagara Falls in person
34. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors
35. Seen an Amish community
36. Taught yourself a new language **I tought myself a little bit of spanish
37. Had enough money to be truly satisfied ** Living it now!
38. Seen the Leaning Tower of Pisa in person
39. Gone rock climbing
40. Seen Michelangelo’s David
41. Sung karaoke
42. Seen Old Faithful geyser erupt
43. Bought a stranger a meal at a restaurant
44. Visited Africa
45. Walked on a beach by moonlight
46. Been transported in an ambulance
47. Had your portrait painted
48. Gone deep sea fishing
50. Been to the top of the Eiffel Tower in Paris
51. Gone scuba diving or snorkeling
52. Kissed in the rain
53. Played in the mud
54. Gone to a drive-in theater
55. Been in a movie
56. Visited the Great Wall of China
57. Started a business **With my dad
58. Taken a martial arts class
59. Visited Russia
60. Served at a soup kitchen
61. Sold Girl Scout Cookies
62. Gone whale watching
63. Got flowers for no reason
64. Donated blood, platelets or plasma
65. Gone sky diving
66. Visited a Nazi Concentration Camp
67. Bounced a check **So hate to admit this! ha!
68. Flown in a helicopter
69. Saved a favorite childhood toy
70. Visited the Lincoln Memorial
71. Eaten Caviar
72. Pieced a quilt
73. Stood in Times Square
74. Toured the Everglades
75. Been fired from a job
76. Seen the Changing of the Guards in London
77. Broken a bone
78. Been a passenger on a motorcycle
79. Seen the Grand Canyon in person
80. Published a book
81. Visited the Vatican
82. Bought a brand new car
83. Walked in Jerusalem
84. Had your picture in the newspaper
85. Kissed a stranger at midnight on New Year’s Eve
86. Visited the White House
87. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
88. Had chickenpox
89. Saved someone’s life
90. Sat on a jury
91. Met someone famous
92. Joined a book club
93. Got a tattoo
94. Had a baby
95. Seen the Alamo in person
96. Swam in the Great Salt Lake
97. Been involved in a law suit ** Yes, but we were the ones who were sueing
98. Owned a cell phone
99. Been stung by a bee

Wow, Looking at this list makes me realize that there are alot of things I havent done, that i NEED to do! I cannot wait to see every one else's entries!

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Tired Tuesday

I am so exausted! I dont know why!!
Who knew being a SAHW would be so tiring!!
I can NEVER find anything to write about ha!
My life is just that boring i guess!
I have been watching Big Love, and I am very impressed! Its pretty good so far!
I cannot wait until I get Brothers & Sisters in the mail