Tuesday, May 11, 2010

When Will it be?

Am I going to see this month after month?
3 years we have tried, 3 years we have been heartbroken.
I just want to know what it feels like to have apart of me growing inside of me.
Yesterday we were so hopeful, We saw the line!
I took another test this morning, and I saw the faint line...
I had to know if it was a BFP or not so I snuck out and got a digital test.
I prayed and prayed... Trying not to get my hopes up.
I swear that was the longest 2 mins of my life.
In that two mins my life could have changed.
But here I am with an empty womb, and a Negative pregnancy test to prove it...
Lord, Do you hear my prayers?
I'm ready.


  1. Oh girl I went through that when we were trying so hard for Kelcee we tried for over 2 years and after 2 miscarriages, and 3 surgeries god blessed us with our miracle little girl in 2006! It is so hard every month to hope that Aunt Flo will not come and you will be pregnant! I believe each month I bought every pregnancy test in every store, temperature kits, ovulation predictors, girl you name it I bought it! I know that sad feeling all to well when you get the not pregnant on that stick! It is as if your heart sinks and you get so sick to your stomach! Girl you will be a mommy, do not give up hope, God has a plan for us all, we may not know what it is yet but he does have a plan!

    I will say an extra prayer for you today, hang in there pretty girl

    Summer :0)

  2. Thank you for your kind words! Its so hard to be patient! But like you said! GOD has a plan for us all!

  3. I know how you feel. Up until just recently for 5 years we were leaving it up to God and not really NOT trying but not actively trying either, and nothing. And now we are actively trying. Hopefully it will make a difference. I am taking ovulation sticks every day and so far nothing. (((baby dust to you!)))

  4. I'm really sorry. I was pulling for you guys. <3

  5. I know exactly how you were feeling. I have had so many similar conversations with God that were very similar to yours. Those clearblue digital monitors are so brutal. You may as well post NOT PREGNANT in neon lights on a billboard.

    I wish for you to someday see those words you so long to read. God sees you...God hears your call. ((Hugs for you))