When Will it be?

Am I going to see this month after month?

3 years we have tried, 3 years we have been heartbroken.

I just want to know what it feels like to have apart of me growing inside of me.

Yesterday we were so hopeful, We saw the line!

I took another test this morning, and I saw the faint line...

I had to know if it was a BFP or not so I snuck out and got a digital test.

I prayed and prayed... Trying not to get my hopes up.

I swear that was the longest 2 mins of my life.

In that two mins my life could have changed.

But here I am with an empty womb, and a Negative pregnancy test to prove it...

Lord, Do you hear my prayers?

I'm ready.

Show Us Your Life- Kids Names

I don't usually participate in things like this but Kelly over at Kelly's Korner ,Wanted us to share with you all our Kids/future kids names.

I am not a mommy yet, but My husband and I have been picking out names for our future children since we got married!

And yes they have changed, but we are getting somewhere!

DH and I want 5 kids! well, 6 including SS.

I want to have 3 boys and 2 girls! But GOD might not see fit, so I need to have 5 boy names picked and 5 girl names picked! LOL and when the time comes I will choose from a hat! Crazy huh??

LOL Kinda!

I only have 2 girl names and 2 boy names.

**Girls**

Naomi Renae Brady- I absolutely love this name! and it flows!

It means Beautiful, or pleasant! Naomi is also a bible name! She was Ruth's Mother in law, and Jesus was her ancestor! Such a powerful name!

Noelle Janae Brady- I love this name for a little girl! But will only name my daughter Naomi if she is born in the winter time LOL

**Boys**

Nehemiah James Brady- Which means Consoled by God. Nehemiah was a strong leader in the bible! He wrote The book of Nehemiah. He was truly a man after Gods heart.

Joel- We have no middle name for him yet! But I love it! Joel means God is willing. Also a powerful name.

I got a NEW tattoo!!!

Please excuse my Ashiness, and the dirtyness!

My husbands office is so messy!

Oh and!!! My husband GOT A RAISE!!!! WHOOP!!!

Thank you Jesus!!!!

Im on a mission.....

To look like This again!!!

I was 18, 50lbs lighter... and single! LOL I actually took these pictures the day i met my hubby! Love makes you gain weight! I wasnt the skinniest, But I was cute! and I was wearing a size 14/15!!!! Buy the end of the summer i want to be 50lbs lighter! by my 22nd bday *7/7* I want to be 25lbs lighter! Wish me luck yall!!!

Top 10 homes!

Patrick and I would love to sell our current house and buy our forever home soon! So Out of boredom i went and found our top 10 homes! The first 9 are in no particular order, but the last house I would buy today! So enjoy! Don't forget to click the links for more pictures!

Stone Street Home

This home is priced right! But it does not have enough bedrooms, it only has 3! And its out dated. I love the backyard.

20th Ave Home

Another small home! Well, not really it has about 3400sqft.. I think thats with the garage included! I just love the large front yard, and the updated kitchen! I love cape cod style homes! Its DEF. at the top of our price range.

Devonridge Area Home

This home needs A LOT Of work! But I love the curb appeal! the backyard is my favorite!

Manito Park Home

This house seems like it would be a lot of work! and I don't think it has a backyard! But I love the inside!

Spokane Valley Area home

I don't know why I like this home! LOL, I just do!

Altamont Circle home

Needs A LOT of updating as well! But I love the yard! I mean look how much front yard there is! And its the PERFECT location!

Manito Park Cape Cod home

Another Cap Cod!! *SWOONS* Its small, but I love the oldness of it!

Crossbow CT home

Perfect number of bedrooms, perfect number of bathrooms! Its just so old looking! So this one would need a lot of updating as well!

E 23rd home

When I say this home is PERFECT, I mean its perfect! Everything about it! Its updated, throughout, The price is right! I could see myself living here! I bet you all are wondering why it isn't my #1 pick right?

The area its in! I grew up in the Valley, Graduated from University High school... But I love the South Hill! and I will NEVER move back to the Valley! If this house was on the Hill, I would buy it today LOL!

E 49th Home

Its new! The yard is big, and its in the school district we want our kids to go to! This house does need a little updating, but nothing i wouldn't mind doing myself! its high in our price range, but Its amazing!!!

I Love Him

This man is my world! Words cannot express how much I love my husband!

He is such a hard worker! And he takes good care of me.

I would say I am VERY spoiled LOL!

He is an amazing father to his son, He is an amazing husband to me. He is an amazing man of GOD.

Who knew that I would fall in love with him and marry him after 4 short days!

I could honestly say that was the best thing I could have ever done!

Patrick, I love you so much! Thank you for being there for me, and thank you for loving me unconditionally, you mean everything to me! And I cannot wait to give you more babies! Who knows, I might give you the 10 you want....

ICLW- First Timer

Well, I am a first timer ICLWer! I hope i am not to late to join!
A little bit about myself, I am 21 years old! Happily married to my husband of 3 years! We got married young, and pretty quick. Together we dont have any kids! We have been TTC for 3 years, and I know we are going to concieve soon, I am speaking it into existance! My husband has a 6 year old boy!
I am a stay at homewife, and I love it! My husband works full time at our church! Its his dream job! I love GOD with all of my heart, he is def. a priority!
We are first time homeowners! Which Is amazing, I love owning my own home. We have lived in out house for about a year and 4 months now, and we are FINALLY starting rennovations! Besides that I love scrapping, and meeting new people!!

A Letter for you...

Dear Nehemiah/Noelle,
I was just sitting here thinking about how wonderful life would be if you were here. I just want to let you know that I love you so much, and I cannot wait to hold you and kiss you! You are so loved, and you have so many people here who are awaiting your arrival! You know Mommy, and Daddy have been trying for 3 years now, We have put all of our trust in GOD, so when know once you are concieved it will be perfect.
I am scared at time though, Will i be a great mother? Will I be someone you look up to? Will we argue? Will we have a close relationship? Those are things i have to pray for. I want to be a great role model to you, I want you to be able to tell me everything and anything! There will be no secerts.
Even though I dont know you, even though you arent growing inside of me yet I just want you know that I am so in love with you, You dont know how good your life will be! Your daddy works so hard, and I will be home with you all day, there wont be any second that we arent together.
My promise to you is you will never be put in harms way, you will be loved unconditionally, GOD will be your priority, and you will serve him and love him with all your heart. I want you to remember that your feelings come before mine, and I will make sure that you have a comfy life, you wont have to want for anything, and all your needs will be met.
I cannot wait to read this letter you! I know its going to be sooner than later. Nehemiah or Noelle, I love you!

Love,
Your Mommy

We are getting in the groove of things.

So it has been a whole week since my step son has arrived, and what a week it has been.

Alot of ups, and a whole lot of downs, since i have expressed this to you all. alot has changed. We are a weekend family now, and not because of the talk i had with my husband, which i will let you all know how that went in a few.

Anyways, We had Ryan enrolled at a school 2 blocks from our house, everything was going well until his mom decides to move some place else, and enroll him at a different school. My husband was heated. This lady is unstable, She doesnt know if she is coming or going. Right now Ryan needs to be with us, where there is stablilty and structure. You can see it in his actions. We need to have full custody. He is 6, can't say full sentences, he doesnt understand the simple things. It breaks my heart, and she doesnt care. If he was in our care full time, he would be in speech classes. Its a sad thing.

Now on to my talk with my husband, I let him know how i was feeling, and of course he was upset, but we talked through it, and things are already better. I didnt want to "lose" my husband. Since I have my husband back I am becoming a better "mother". I may be a strict one, but I am realizing that I love it, and I love my step son. I was talking to my MIL, and she kinda made me mad, she was like " I bet you like playing mama". the fact that she said that I am playing mom hurt me. I dont think i am playing mom. Im living it, It may be on weekends, but Its real. And I cannot wait to add more to the mix!

Who is loving this spring weather? I know I am, I have my back door open! such a nice breeze! We have gotten so much done in our backyard! pretty soon we will be able to entertain back there!

Today I went to another baby shower! It was alot of fun! Alot of the women there are already moms, which kinda made me feel like an outcast, but it was okay, alot of the women there were telling me to take note on the things I will need to my baby! this may sound weird, but I cannot wait until I am losing sleep, I cannot wait until I feel my baby moving around inside of me. I cannot wait until I am being called mommy by my children!

All those things will be happening soon! I am claming it!

Home Tour

Well, on twitter there has been this twitter home tour craze, and I thought I would join in! I dont have many pictures up yet! We have lived in our home of for a year and a half, and JUST now started decorating, and stuff! but as soon as we are done i will update! Below i have a couple videos of my house the night we moved in, and a video of a huge backyard *half acre* which we are finally working on!! Im gonna have grass the summer! lol